Hi lovelies! I know it's been awhile, which I shouldn't actually point out, because the internet says that you shouldn't tell people that you've been gone when they might not have even noticed. But whatever, unspoken rules are meant to be broken. And I can't hop back onto my blog without saying anything about my mini-hiatus.
I've been trying to get back into blogging for a little while now. I've never been a "just post my sessions" type photographer. I mean, come on, I'm a talker.
That hasn't been quite as simple lately.
Honestly, it's fairly easy to write and be yourself when things are good. When life is overall... positive. Even when there are temporary slumps, you can still share the good, be honest, and give an authentic glimpse into the bad.
But what about when things are REALLY bad? Like... life changing bad? When a family member dies, or if you get a serious illness, or say, you go through a separation?
I separated from my husband about 6 months ago.
It's the deeper reason for some of the harder posts I've shared in the past year (like this one and this one). I've definitely been through my own life changing event, and I'd love to say that it hasn't affected my business, but I'd be lying. It's permeated through every aspect of work, and while my clients have remained fairly happy for the most part, I've pulled back on the parts of the business that require heart and passion. The blogging, the social media, the networking...it's been on hiatus because I haven't really been... present.
I hate it. I love sharing with my readers, and connecting with my clients, but it's not so easy when you're sad. Or distracted. Or whatever. So this is the other side of authenticity. The not so pretty side. The ugly truth.
I'd like to believe that writing this blog post is the beginning of turning all of that around. Revealing that this actually happened AND that it has definitely affected my business is a HUGE STEP for me; I know that I've got friends and clients who know me as part of a husband and wife photo/video duo and will very much care. But I think it was a necessary one. I think it's hard to be authentic when you feel like you're holding back or hiding something. But I still love everything about my work, and I still have the most wonderful clients, and my biggest hope is to continue doing this sort of work for as long as possible.
I don't know how it's already May, but with the year almost half over, I'm taking strides to get back to, well, ME! I have so many things I want to share with you all, so many shoots I haven't posted, tips and advice I still believe in. All of which I'm tired of holding back!
So buckle up. Because I'm back. And I've got such pretty, pretty things coming on the blog this week, that I'm quite sure you REALLY don't want to miss.
If you read all of this... thank you!! You're a trooper and I heart you!
Of course, I understand if you didn't, so here's your TL;DR:
- being authentic is simpler when life is good, not so much when it's bad
- Brian and I separated but it's okay because it's a new leaf for us both and we both want only the best for each other
- i love my clients, and my work and i'm so ready to get back to focusing on it!
- there are pretty things coming on the blog this week so COME BACK TOMORROW!
Hope your Monday is filled with happiness and copious amounts of coffee!