So honesty time... This past weekend Faces In Focus had it's first wedding (photos will be up on Wednesday). Officially unofficially. And i'm not sure if I'm supposed to tell you all that, world, but I feel I should. Because otherwise I couldn't tell you about how much I learned in such a short span of time.
The past few weddings I've photographed were very relaxed, no pressure weddings. Friends of mine who didn't mind me taking a few extra pictures. And while I loved how they turned out, I had yet to experience a complete, on my own, this-is-your-JOB-so-don't-screw-up kind of wedding.
And experience I did. Saturday was a blaze of revised schedules, guys who are wondering why I'm ruining their relaxing morning of video games with my darn camera, and several "What do I do now?" moments. It was quite a rush when I had an idea, and I was able to make it come to life. And then a disappointment when I got home and realized it wasn't as awesome as I hoped, or that'd I'd overexposed someone's shirt or face.
In the end, I was happy with my photos. Happy with the fact that I was actually able to make all the craziness in my head actually appear on camera. Happy that I had pictures I'd never taken before, that were new and different. And, in the end, I was disappointed. Because I didn't speak up when I wanted. Or direct the way I should. Or explain in a way that made them understand.
But, really, in the end, I learned. I grew. I felt it in my bones that I hadn't just accomplished something that I imagined, but I'd taken a step up in the growing process. I was learning. And next time, I'll be better. Better than before. Better than ever.
I just hope that in the times after that, I can say the same thing. Because, in the end, all the matters is that you grow.